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 Since I'm trying to write more poetry and get back to it (because I fucking love it) I'm working on filling the Wednesday poetry prompts they throw on Writer's Digest. This week was "Exploration" and like most of my shit got weird.

WARNINGS for: sexual imagery, death, and religious shit which is most of what I do poetry wise


In seven days

Genesis unmade-

drifting falling

no Earth calling...


Eyes Wide Shut

my mouth maps your skin

‘til your thighs let me in.

South by Southwest

deep breath deep breath

my hand your chest

my lips your tip

Blue Lips teasing tripped

sideways slithered

your keened cries zithered


Every pixelated pore passing

Through a Scanner Darkly

Marooned 5 million light years away

240p rendered stardust fingers

sinking to my head

on our busted cryo bed

in this land of the dead

no air no care

nowhere but your galvanized stare

and your fists in my hair


This is the way the world ends

Time bends skin rends

While the blink red lens

Beams and streams

these broken ship’s dreams

Skittle diddle gravity drop

Roll drop stop

With a cherry berry pop

of the final bough breaking

and you and I forsaking

the last Tears for Fears

of our stolen years.


For what I want most

of that final gasping ghost

is the sweet seminal host

-a toast-

with my last breath held

the hollowed hull felled

As the World Falls Down-

As I drown

swapping Cinnamon snow

to your mouth as I go.


In seven nights

Paradise blights

Like the land of Nod

Where there is no god


And with one kiss

For a moment

I exist


cyrelia_j: a smiling queen with blue lipstick and large round glasses (Default)
 So I've been struggling with this because one of the things that I enjoy writing are period pieces (though I actually prefer the 70s and earlier) and I've found that there are some stories I want to tell with a more personal narration to them influenced by my own experiences growing up in the 90s. Stories and plays, to be exact. The problem that I'm running into is the matter of language. They way in which me and my peers (queer or not) spoke to each other and about the world around us is totally not even close to acceptable in today's society and absolutely falls into that "problematic" category.

Which makes me wonder do I try and clean everything up or do I just straight shoot things as I remember them?

I don't want to cause harm or contribute to any sort of negativity or even have people think that I holds certain views that I don't. I also don't want to lose potential audience or exposure. But then I feel that to not be true would be to whitewash my own history and/or be inauthentic in what I want to do so... *sigh* I really just don't know :/
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 Now that I have your attention lol...
 
Since this is Star Trek writing and fandom we're getting into of course we have our resident xenophiles and lots of discussion on alien sexing. What I wanted to consider today specifically is marrying this concept into the rather diverse ace spectrum. So full disclosure, because I write Jack as proudly ace, while I myself am allosexual, I've been working to research and better understand asexuality so I can do proper justice to Jack and also asexual people as a whole. But given that I'll always be using an outsider perspective I know I'm not going to always get things right in my understanding of all the different nuances.
 

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Dec. 21st, 2018 12:58 am
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Since it's so much easier to express here of all the platforms I use...

This is Cyrelia J. The identity and alter ego generally used in fandom and the titular character in the story:


The Cyrelia J character


This is Andrew, the man behind Cyrelia J and how I appear day to day:


The man behind Cyrelia J


So you'll note I tend not to list pronoun preference. That's because it complicated haha. Cyrelia J is a female character however I'm not a female XD So I usually go with whatever. The only thing I'd ask (and it's never happened but you never know) is not to refer to Andrew as "she". I also don't care for "they" but I can see where it would make sense here so yeah that's cool too if that's easier for you.

And of course it goes without saying that this is Jack who isn't actually me (but who I sometimes channel) but who you'll see posting here as well

Jack from DS9

Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk

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Dec. 21st, 2018 12:35 am
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So this is novel. I haven't used LJ in years but this is still familiar at least. I've gone back and forth on exactly how I want to make use of this platform. I don't know how unique a "problem" this is but I'm still the only Cyrelia J anywhere on the internet in the history of time so it's always important to me to take the name and it still is (and ostensibly always will be) the name that I write under.

That being said, I've really been enjoying doing more with the Jack character and having some fun posting from his POV and posting in character. I think it would be fun to create an Jack character blog but I really just don't have the time to devote to a unique blog.

So for now like everything else this will have to stay a catch all with my IC as Jack stuff done with a different icon. In a way Cyrelia J itself is a character like Jack so I may need to play around with that since there are different icon options. I've gotten used to using Jack but I'll probably use my "Cyrelia J" icon to post as that character and just switch as need be so uh... all I can say is pay attention to the icons XD

And watch out for lots of Jack since I can do more posts as him here and ramble a lot less self consciously

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